We all have those moments where being in an LDR just makes us want to screen and profusely bash our head against the nearest hard service,or at least I am assuming that other people do.
We all have those moments where we are faced with the unique obstacles of a long distance relationship. I can attest to being in one of those moments right now in matter of fact, and for those that are curious this is Raymond.
Due to certain situations for the present time and foreseeable future I am unable to get a job and i am left to recycling and saving spare change (which surprisingly actually amounts to a healthy amount every month) but even with that the amount i manage to receive is laughable at best. In all honestly I wouldn’t even care if it weren’t for the fact that I wanted to treat Reagan well when she comes down here next june, I wanted to give her a good Christmas because it was our first and i wanted to make it something to remember.
To top it all off my computer access is in a uneasy position due to mine finally kicking the bucket, Being in an LDR, and not to mention online classes it is a heavy blow to my personal and professional aspects of my life. With Christmas, next June, computer, and job issues I am in a justified “urgh” moment which is only exasperated by my pride as a person to strive to do beyond of what can be expected of me. (Something Reagan tells me to relax a bit on but by force of habit it’s like pulling my own teeth out while i’m on fire.).
I am lucky to be coming into money in the close future but that will very quickly be spent on replacing the necessity, a new computer. After that I may have a little left that I will probably use to get Reagan whatever I can for her for Christmas.
I know that when she reads this she is going to tell me to stop stressing, to stop worrying about her and buying her things, that it doesn’t matter to her. But when you look at a person who means more to you than yourself it makes you laugh as you try to keep yourself as you are attempting to keep yourself from screaming in frustration
However because of the fact of the matter that even with my hardest effort that i could potentially put out, with all of my exponential ability that I will simply have to swallow my pride which is something I have only done a handful of times in my life.
Then I remember just who it is I care about, the person that Means so much to me and with an easy breath, just like that I can swallow my pride and exhale without a second thought. It shouldn’t go without saying that it doesn’t knack at my brain now and again but that no matter what she is worth it.
Morale of the story, if you ever find that person that without hesitation you would defy your own nature, hell you may very well have found the one. Best to keep an eye on them, and hook them in if you can. .